Thinking through for the whole day. I AM in the wrong as I did say agree that I shall leave it to you for the final editing. But I can't help it but to grumble when I see mistakes in it. Not that I do not appreciate your effort. Mayb its due to my perfectionist character. But this is not an excuse. As I was all prepared to admit my mistake or even saying sorry. You have to ruin it. The anger shows no understanding and shows all intention. Smashing the piggy bank is totally destorying the relationship. Intention of doing so, shows intention of killing it. And the only reason why the action was not carried out was due to the fact that you minded how others view of you and not you cherishing me. so what is the point of making me talk to you? What is the point of you saying that all I care is winning and not caring abt you? What is the point when you were all prepared to lose me? What is the point of me sitting here and crying when you wan to end it this way? Maybe it is time to let go. Maybe it is time to...... I dunno...

if that is how u want to end the relationship - smashing the piggy bank. FINE

this is a v nice song... one of the 2 favourites chinese songs for me now... hee...

×× 數 到 五 答 應 我 ××
第一次看著你 就為你心動聰明的我 怎能讓你走
第二次看見你 我竟然失控是我的錯 請你原諒我
第三次看見你 想要告訴你我真的愛你 是真愛你
第四次看著你 我有些要求請你能夠 安安靜靜的聆聽

一.讓我保護你
二.讓我照顧你
三.所有的要求不能當作遊戲
四.接受這命運
五.永遠不分離那最後一個一定要說你願意
Want be your lover want be your man我只要你開心多一點
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend給你幸福到永遠

第一次看著你 就為你心動聰明的我 怎能讓你走
第二次看見你 我竟然失控是我的錯 請你原諒我
第三次看見你 想要告訴你我真的愛你 是真愛你
第四次看著你 我有些要求請你能夠 安安靜靜的聆聽
ONE 讓我保護你
TWO 讓我照顧你
THREE 所有的要求不能當作遊戲
FOUR 接受這命運
FIVE 永遠不分離說你願意
Want be your lover want be your man我只希望給你多一點
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend給你幸福每一天

因為我Want be your lover want be your man我只要你開心多一點
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend給你幸福到永遠
你說你害怕 因為受過傷不需要害怕
因為我不是他Want be your lover want be your man
我只希望給你多一點
Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend給你幸福每一天
因為我Want be your lover want be your man我只要你開心多一點Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend給你幸福到永遠

i'm listening to 933 now... they are talkin about their own teachers in the past... which reminds me... teachers day! heee

I received 2 Happy Teachers' Day from my students so far... haha.... actually, i'm v touched... They actually remembered me... haha... i mean... i stopped teachin them in may... thats like 4 months before... haha... This makes me even more positive about my life career! haha... Teaching - making a difference!

Here... I would like to thank my teachers too!
Mr Albert Lim - the physics that taught me the whole sybullus within half a year (long story.. hee... more like i'm a naughty girl... did not pay attention when i was in sec 3) haha... he stayed back many nights just to teach us lo...

Mr Lua Yik Pin - Band teacher cum form teacher for 2 years... hee... i 'scolded' him many times in front of him... yet.. he was never angry... haha... i'm naughty...

Mrs Teh - the cool woman that inspired me in Chemistry... hee...

Mrs Sim - english from F9 to A2... what more can i say... amazing... haha...

Mrs Chua- band conductor that behaves more like a mother to us... haha... she v cute... n trust me quite alot i think... hee... happy~

Ms Goh (Alicia) - she is an amazing person... was never my direct teacher... yet she spent lots of time together with us to teach us... haha...

Mrs Choo - my dearest pri sch teacher...

Mr Ee - he taught me chinese for 4 out of 6 years in pri school... see my chinese so pro now...

Mr Lim Han Yong - jc maths teacher that lives near me... he played a major role in bonding my class together with all the sports and games with us...

Miss Tay Sen Ai... the blur but nice chemistry teacher in TJ...

Mr Pang Sai Heng- cutest teacher... haha... retired after teachin us for 3 months... he talked mostly crap in class... haha... we enjoyed them...

Dr Yew... The only prof that gives us the teacher feeling...

n my colleagues: Sharon, Miss Lee, Mrs Lim, Mdm Ho, Joesphine Ho/Cheong, Hardi, Mr Joesph Lim, Kelly, and all teachers in Ngee Ann, TJ and Qiaonan Pri!

HappY TeacHers' DaY!

I can't help it but think that I am just too blur for my own good... One day, I'm really gonna get into serious trouble!... Why... Eversince I came to uni... My silly stunts have been uncountable... and i became the butt of the jokes... So bad right... BUT this led me to the discovery that many around me will take care of me and really care for me... hee... That is why recently, I feel that i am surrounded by the love of my friends and my family...

There is always my sister to help me bring my clothes from home when i packed and forgot to bring it over to the hostel... There is always mel,jen, yee ee to listen to my crap when i'm feelin down.. There is always mummy to wash my clothes and nag for me to eat... There is always my chem clique (davin, CM, AH) to get me seats durin lecture and send me notes when i fall asleep in lecture and also check my tutorial slots for me when i forgot which ones i balloted for... hee.... there is always someone around to assure that i am loved... hee... what more do i want... this is blessed life as i said in my previous post... hhaha... :D

shall not hao lian anymore! hee... okok... if not kharma... i will treasure this love by my friends and family...

i'm so so so happy... hee.. Y? coz i feel that i a blessed girl...

Just went out with my OBS-MOE watch mates... so much fun and so much catching up to do!.. really... we only knew each other from the 4 days OBS in july... yet such strong friendships can be forged... Unbelievable right... hee...

First we went melissa's blk 5, its with air con and toilet! So comfortable eh... hee... $110 a week is not fake one... hee... then to my room... Nicholas even gave me a zhu long bing as a house warming gift... so cute of him right... haha... Then to debbie's room in Kent Ridge, so new and nice lo... But mayb too happening for me... Thereafter to eusoff hall - Marcus's room.. He brought a desktop into his room lo... generally is quite neat and tidy... surprised surprised... but his clothes are all in a mess... hee... Then we went for dinner at the taiwan shop beside fong seng... not bad a dinner la... but the bubble tea cannot make it... Haojun and I made the same face at each other the moment we drank it... so funny eh... LAst stop is Nicholas's place... So big eh... His house is v v v big... and his mum is v hao ke... got lots of fruits and drinks for us... plus a bag of grapes in my fridge now... haha... so cute rite...

When i reached back into my room, my 3 besties came over.. Mel, Jen,Yee ee... We talked for a while in my room before they went back to allow me the time to do my work... so thoughtful right... thats y i say tt i'm blessed... then i need help.. they were, are and will be there for me... i hope to do the same for them too! hee... Love the 3 of them! hee...

whats the feeling of being in love with someone? ermm... seriously... i dun know... i've always seen people coming together and staying together... really dunno how did they do it...
I mean whenever i see those middle aged or old couples walkin hand in hand together, i will always ponder if i ever have a chance to that... Makes me wan to look into my future to see if i can have that kind of sweetness... I really hope that i can have it! hee... who doesn't, anyway...

Is the initial sweetness of the sms-es, the long walks, the long phone calls, the sending home trips, the quiet times together equal to the meanin to love and to that kind of ending together? mayb... mayb its the starting of the long journey together... really makes one wonder about the next step together... I really do hope so... haha... i mean a good husband/wife is really what u need to make ur life complete,happy and sweet, other than ur goals and family etc... ok... i'm just talkin to myself... again...

ermm... time to continue abt my bestis... haha... love them all man...

JC pals...
first on the list will definitely be the 4 important ppl who accompanied me thru these 3 years...
Jennifer- this is the kind-hearted girl who never fails to remember what u have mentioned, whether is it once or twice... or whether is it big or small... love her for being so caring, for being there when i need her, for crappin around with me, for just appearing in my life... haha... jen... thanks for everything... continue to b my darling k... haha...
Melina- this woman here appeared in my life damn early... but in the wrong way i think... got bad impression... haha... sec 2 combine concert... tot she always so black faced de... haha... but u get to know her... she is such a lovable girl!... my dear dear wor... though she is not zhuan yi de... got dearie, forever more, honey etc... haha... my relationship with her can b describe with the song 一个像夏天一个像秋天.. hee... go listen k girl...
yee ee-this is the crazy woman that hangs out with us... the 4 of us (geck{me}, jen, mel, yee ee) are always together... hee... remember those times.. so fun.. hee... but now tt we are stayin so so near, 3 of us in PGP and her in KE7, visiting makes uni life more fun! haaa
susan- my studying-mate, classmate, bandmate, sectionmate, going home- mate, pon band-mate, etc etc... this shows tt we have spent many many hours together... haha... we both love disneys!! haha... sue... thanks for all the accompanyment... really love it man... haha...

not forgetting all the frens in 36/04(TJ) - yunhui, vicki, lettie, wenjie, russel, marc, clarence, swee leong, eewei, inez, golda, david, wantin, sandy...
other frens too! - kayan, xuena, fiona, benedict, felicia, winnie, lynette, adeline, dahye, alex, melissa, royston, (first 3 months ppl - wanlin, kelly, kosing, liangwei, rachel, xiaowen, and the guys in 04S01 TPJC) etc etc etc

my OBS friends! Elizabeth rocks! haha... ppl i love u guys!... they include melvin (yu ge ge), haojun(pey yong jun), su san (mummy), peiling (taiwan ou xiang ju), yunli, eunice, nicholas, marcus, chee hui, debbie, esther, kenn, melissa...

ok... now to my uni friends... haha... there are so many of them... and i dun think i'm gonna bore anyone.. haha... i'm gonna catagorise them into where i meet them k... i hope to know each and everyone of them betta and create betta friendships!

USP- this is a small community... but people inside are great! so smart... so witty... hee... some people like mable, alexius, ying tat, davin, choon ming, eunice, aik heng, yi teng, lynette, madeline, min xuan, joel, ivan, ruth, ying tuo, junwen, charmaine (my neighbour! haha...) and many many more left great impressions on me! hee... really do hope to know them betta... hee...

Chem clique... needless to say... hee... spendin alot of time together... davin, junming, aikheng, tiankwan and occassionally eunice...

band ppl - giam, yixin,cedric, rochelle, and pple from other sections...

this finally ended... shall talk more abt myself next time... haha...

haha.... i finally got in again!... i forgot my username.... tried tons of combination... haha...

hrmmpp... in this post... just feel like thanking all my friends and family who gave me support all these while... suddenly feel the love from them surrounding me ar... hee...

ok... first...
my big big big family...
papa, mummy, er jie, da jie, da jie fu, kor kor, dada, ting ting, hao hao, sydelle, sergio baobei, gui xiang kor kor, mama, dawn, ah mei aka lynette, deanson, gan die, wilson, ivan, aiyi, ahteo, this list goes on and on... they are the people that i see almost (i really mean almost) everyday if i'm at home... haha.... my house will always be filled with plenty of people de... mayb on the average 7-8? big huh...

my besties now...
from primary school...
kyrin... my darling who has been in the same class as me from primary 2 all the way to sec 4 (all the way...) a little crazy la... haha... but its fun to have someone who shares the similar memories all the way!
kayan- she is one unique girl! hhaa... got to know her only in primary 5 i think... she could remember things about me and us that i cannot even recall... haha... a great percussionist too!...
there are many others too! chiamin, adeline, yong chuan, kwan yuan, mavis, daryl, kohji, anngee, dawn, adibah (i met her durin band fest! haha... same band somemore eh...) and many many more!

from secondary school...
yan- my besti even till now! still keepin in contact though she is busy dating with da ge... haha... ok la... sorry... not she busy la... haha... this little girl here stood by me all these years... through o levels where we crapped with each other everydae cos we dun feel like studying... haha... and through a levels when i had so many problems... she just listened and not complained... JX u better treasure her k... if not i'll b the first one to kill u! ahaha...
charlotte... my lao ma... haha... in case u dun know... i also have a big family in 3E1/4E1 (2002-2003)... she is really the best lao ma de material... haha... takes care of all of us... works hard... v happy to see tt she is happy with zhanghan for so many years... yeah... one more thing... she lives like opposite block to me... n we did not discover it till sec 2 though we lived there for more that 12 years when we discovered... crazy right... haha...
chee jian - my smart smart lao pa... he is always the top student eh... plus he always helps us in our work... we blur blur de ar... haha... i'm always v touched by his small small actions... hee
ok... there are much much more... my family here includes - wilmond, junxiang, jianyong,kyrin(again... haha...),brandon(are u in it anot ar... cannot remember), thiam aik... aiya... who ask my family members go anyhow ren other family de... haha... too big le... haha...

there is also my band friends who went through thick and thin with me for the 2 SYFs and the various concerts and overseas trips... ok... here's the list...
the trombonist(or tromboner like what jon likes to say...) : geraldine, suky, jonathan, adrian, jensen,ryan, jezer etc etc...
the committee members: ashikin, khalisah, anngee, fazlinda (oh my, girl power!) and hansel...
the rest of the band: serene, dorothy, jane, alan, yin xuan, kenny, samantha, ashraf, eliza, liyan, elieen, shawn, yong xiang, colin, samuel, the list goes on and on and on.... haha...
anyway.. NASband roX! we made miracles happen! haha...

this is seriously getting too long... hee... will continue with the rest later k... now i need to get going for my class later... hee... bye!